November 2012

Lately, I have found myself doing a lot of self-examining, and you would think with all the exams I take during school I would be sick of them!  It’s now more than half way through the semester and I find I have what I like to call “the mid-semester blues.”  I’m stuck and often find myself overwhelmed with everything I tend to take on. It’s not to say that I’m not fulfilling everything; I see all these doors opening up right in front of me and I just want to rush right through every one. I need to learn to take a step back and examine every situation, because you know, every decision I make will affect the rest of my life. It could be as simple as making sure I have a little more time to study or throwing myself out there for an internship. Every action I take, every word I say will affect me and those around me some way or another. Through this all I am finding I am achieving more, if I take a step back and examine myself and really ask myself, do I have time to take this own, or how others will perceive me as.

The first sign of maturity is the discovery that the volume knob also turns to the left.
— Jerry M. Wright

This year especially, I have noticed that I, personally, hold myself to higher standards than I have ever before, which has ultimately led to a greater sense of fulfillment for me. Maybe it’s because I’m actually taking time to find a balance between leisure and business or maybe it’s because I’m actually doing what I want for a change and not what everyone expects of me.

Overall, this year I’m finding that I am coming into myself even more and finding out who I am and who I want to be, and it feels great. I believe that this is what college is supposed to be, a bridge between who we were and the gateway to who we want to be. Of course we are going to stumble on the way, we wouldn’t be human if we didn’t do that, but it’s the lessons we learn from the stumbles that ultimately make us who we are. Each day we’re changing little by little, every morning when you and I wake up we are different from yesterday, but when you add up all the small little pieces it makes on magnificent piece of art: You. Me. Everyone. Who are you going to be when you wake up tomorrow?